Saturday, February 20, 2010

She's tired.

My mom is an amazingly strong woman. I have often shaken my head in wonderment at her strength. When facing difficult times she has always put one foot in front of the other and kept going, as if she knew nothing else. Giving up for Mom has never been an option. No one person, or thing in my life has been stronger.

Our relationship has not always been a good one. I believe that to be a natural part of life, at least for me. Although, when I moved to Montana, our relationship changed. The words "I love you" were said often. And meant, from the heart.

Mom has been in and out of a nursing home and hospitals lately. She had fallen and hit her head. While in the hospital they found a cerebral hemorrhage, and that she had a minor stroke. I tell myself these are things a strong person can overcome.

The reality, painful reality, is that Mom says she is tired. Tired physically, mentally and spiritually. And I know that when a person is tired there is no magic pill, no surgery, nothing medical science can do. There is only a short time left.

4 comments:

Granny Good Witch said...

When you went home did you tell her it is okay to be tired and to rest now that all your cares and worries are in Gods hands that God is there to make sure everything is alright. And you know me and moms God, but it may be something a strong women like our mom needs to hear. Or she is just waiting on dad, so he can lye down next to her and they can both go to sleep.
I love you little sister with all my heart. Your Witchy big sis

A said...

I just came across your blog and reading it I felt like I was reading something I wrote or will write soon about my own mother. My heart goes out to you during this time.

its_me_in_montana said...

Granny,

Yes, I told Mom it was okay to be tired, and to go when she was ready. That is what you do when you love someone, you set them free.

Love ya

its_me_in_montana said...

The Next Phase,

Thanks for taking the time to read my blog. My prayers go to you and your mother. It is not an easy time, no matter how much time you have to "prepare".

Peace, Boni